Dear JJ

Dear JJ,

My sweet first born, my darling daughter, I have so many feelings about giving you the gift of a sibling next month. While I’m a little sad about losing our sweet time, just you and me, I’m also so sure that the gift of a sibling is one of the greatest gifts I can give you. I just hope, along with the birth of your brother, I can give you all the support, love, and grace you need as you adjust to life as a big sister.

There are surely many things to look forward to about sharing life with you brother, but let’s remember first all the good things we enjoyed about life just you and me.

  • those lazy first 3 months together – I think back so fondly at the newborn stage with you. Sure, the exhaustion was hard and I worried more then I should of as a first time mom; but life was slow and all my time was consumed by caring for and cuddling the sweetest gift I ever received
  • learning together – having your first baby is such a learning experience: reaching milestones together and introducing your first foods was such a joy. Life is so small when you’re so focused on helping your 6 month old learn how to sit up, and it’s a beautiful kind of smallness. I’ve loved watching you grow and developed into a beautiful and bright toddler.
  • learning about each other – as I evolve as a mother, you are evolving right along side me. I’ve learnt so much about who you are, what you like and don’t like, and I know I have so much more to learn. I feel so grateful to have learnt so much about myself this last year. Your birth was the catalyst for much of the self-discovery I’ve experienced this last year. I hope we can always give each other a safe place and space, as mother and daughter, to grow and change and discover ourselves and each other.

There is going to be a lot of changes in the next year, but I want you to know that some things aren’t going to change.

You will always be the one who made me mama.

You will always be my first born, my darling daughter.

You will always be the one who first taught me what it means to be a mother.

You are my joy; I love you, and I like you. 

Love mama (B.)

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